Boredom & Loneliness
I AM SERIOUSLY BORED RIGHT NOW!!!
Where is everybody? Argh!
Why is sleeping more important than talking to me? It's bad enough that the first person said it. The second person has to say that as well. Forget it.
I don't really like life back in school. Don't tell me studying is better than working. It's not.
So far, thanks to these 2 people, life in NUS is still bearable. The first person is F from a club which I joined recently. We hit off really well and we just simply have so much in common. It all started when I took bus from clementi back to school and she sat next to me. We talked to each other all the way to school, got down the bus, stood at the bus stop chatting then moved on to the stairs then to my hall canteen. Haha! We just met each other less than a few hours ago and we had so much to talk about. I don't remember having met someone the first time and had this much to chat about. I think we chatted for 2+hours before she walked back to her hostel around 12 midnight. Amazing. I like her. Haha. She's from FASS which is quite near to my school and I have a module in Arts which means we can meet for lunch and gossip further. Haha.
The next person is H from my studio group. We were poly schoolmates but we've never spoken to each other before.
Hmm. I want an ice-cream right now. Been thinking about it for a few days already. Ahaha.
Time in school passes so fast. My timetable may not be packed but my project has started to occupy a huge chunk of whatever's left of my free time. I gotta be in studio later at 1pm to meet my group members for our project. There's no such thing as weekends for archi students. Saturday and sunday are our best working days. I used to accomplish so much on fridays, saturdays and sundays during my poly days. Weekends to us means more time to do work. No school, no distractions.
But, I miss my boyfriend. I want to spend more time with him, go out with him and do what other couples do; like watch a movie. Time is precious. I would like him to accompany me while I do my work, read the compulsory books that have been allocated to us, read my lecture notes... but it's so unfair to him. How?
And whenever he's free, I'm not free; when I'm free, he's not free. Argh.
Are friends important? Very important? More important? Just important? I think I'm going crazy in this "fu*ked up" world. I feel so trapped in between. Always putting on different masks to the different people I meet. I keep thinking of Caren's article - Ren Sheng Ru Xi, Xi Ru Ren Sheng. Sian ar!!!
I gotta go prepare or I'll be late. Talk to me people or I'll withdraw into my own space and my own world where YOU don't exist anymore.
I suddenly thought of this person whom I've not spoken to in ages and this image just flashed through my mind. Ahaha. I guess it's because what I just typed in the paragraph above seems so much like this person.
Argh. Whatever. I feel BAD. It's probably pms. -.-"
There was something else I wanted to say but I can't remember. Damn it.
Where is everybody? Argh!
Why is sleeping more important than talking to me? It's bad enough that the first person said it. The second person has to say that as well. Forget it.
I don't really like life back in school. Don't tell me studying is better than working. It's not.
So far, thanks to these 2 people, life in NUS is still bearable. The first person is F from a club which I joined recently. We hit off really well and we just simply have so much in common. It all started when I took bus from clementi back to school and she sat next to me. We talked to each other all the way to school, got down the bus, stood at the bus stop chatting then moved on to the stairs then to my hall canteen. Haha! We just met each other less than a few hours ago and we had so much to talk about. I don't remember having met someone the first time and had this much to chat about. I think we chatted for 2+hours before she walked back to her hostel around 12 midnight. Amazing. I like her. Haha. She's from FASS which is quite near to my school and I have a module in Arts which means we can meet for lunch and gossip further. Haha.
The next person is H from my studio group. We were poly schoolmates but we've never spoken to each other before.
Hmm. I want an ice-cream right now. Been thinking about it for a few days already. Ahaha.
Time in school passes so fast. My timetable may not be packed but my project has started to occupy a huge chunk of whatever's left of my free time. I gotta be in studio later at 1pm to meet my group members for our project. There's no such thing as weekends for archi students. Saturday and sunday are our best working days. I used to accomplish so much on fridays, saturdays and sundays during my poly days. Weekends to us means more time to do work. No school, no distractions.
But, I miss my boyfriend. I want to spend more time with him, go out with him and do what other couples do; like watch a movie. Time is precious. I would like him to accompany me while I do my work, read the compulsory books that have been allocated to us, read my lecture notes... but it's so unfair to him. How?
And whenever he's free, I'm not free; when I'm free, he's not free. Argh.
Are friends important? Very important? More important? Just important? I think I'm going crazy in this "fu*ked up" world. I feel so trapped in between. Always putting on different masks to the different people I meet. I keep thinking of Caren's article - Ren Sheng Ru Xi, Xi Ru Ren Sheng. Sian ar!!!
I gotta go prepare or I'll be late. Talk to me people or I'll withdraw into my own space and my own world where YOU don't exist anymore.
I suddenly thought of this person whom I've not spoken to in ages and this image just flashed through my mind. Ahaha. I guess it's because what I just typed in the paragraph above seems so much like this person.
Argh. Whatever. I feel BAD. It's probably pms. -.-"
There was something else I wanted to say but I can't remember. Damn it.
posted by Vanice at 11:22 AM
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